pissed off...

you have now idea how pissed off one can be...things go from bad to worse..and pressure piles up on me...hey that rhymed....im jus pissed..so much so that i cant write anymore..ill elaborate on it when im not feeln so down..

god look how fuckin bored and lazy i am..i got nothin to post sept this.

A blue whale produces over 400 gallons of sperm when it ejaculates, but only 10% of that actually makes it into his mate. So 360 gallons are spilled into the ocean every time one unloads. You wonder why the ocean is so salty . . . Don't swallow the water!

sori to those whose minds i have ruined...

because i will write and i cant write with someone looking over me.....-thas wat i jus said to my sis...m kinda pissed..i ddnt make it to the honor roll..i need to work harder..i dont have much to say..m too tired to say anythin...bye

i didnt go to shcool today..my excuse was that my grandparents came from the states and i wanted to hang out wit them cuz i see them lyk once a year wen it really was i ddnt do my homework and school is fucked up..my grandparents really came tho..anyway..sometimes i feel lyk my only reason for goin to school is to see a certain someone..someone who means soooo much to me..someone who i mean soooo much to ..probly the sweetest person iv met...someone i love....she (now you know its a girl) gave me a bracelet yesterday and this note..the note was like the nicest..no IS the nicest note anyone's ever given me...m too lazy to go into details about that..i told her last night that id stay wit her the whole day that we'd be out at the same time at school cuz she ws feelin bad..but i ddnt go...demmit......i dont know anyone who ever loved me as much..sometimes i wonder if she's even human...like i'd wonder if she's an angel sent by God to teach me something...but i know shes human..cuz i saw her cry...i made her cry....and i still h8 me for that...now wen she crys cuz of me its a gud cry.i think...i hope she doesnt kill me for wrting this....i wonder if id ever find anyone who can give as much love as this girl gives to me...any mortal person i mean......shez one of the best thing to happen to me in this fucked up year.........she wants me to be something tho but i dont want to yet..m knda sad that i keep tellin myself'no..not yet...your not ready"...i hope im doing the right thing..i just dint think that rushing into this is worth ruining a beautiful relatonship like ours...i sang to her "i want to grow old with you"..if i really wanted to, then time wouldnt matter in that issue..it wouldnt matter how long it would take for me to become what she wants me to be if both of us would wana spent enernity with each othr..i hope you get what i mean...i wonder why the hell im writing this..this is what no school and a heavy breakfast does to you..m gna do pacework..bye

dont you jus h8 it when people judge other people befor they get to know the person..or they think of a person in a certain way just because of what they heard about someone..i h8 that..i h8 it wen people say shit about my friends..im arguing a couple ppl now cuz of my friend..ther sayn shit about her thas not tru..and shes hurt.....i cant stand seeing her hurt..i really really care about this person....shit .wat am i trying to say...w8 ill start over...people are hurting the girl that i love..i cant stand that shit so im fighting for her...there..i think das wat i meant....if anyone says shit about my friends, esspecially if my friend is really close to me, ima fight for them..ill take their pain and throw it back at the people who gave it...i hope im getn the point across...dont mess wit my friends...this entry seems incomplete...oranginschnitzzen

today was one of the most depressing days iv gone through..i slept like at 2 r 3 this morning and the at the same time the night before so i had bad reflexes n junk..then i ddnt finish my homework last night..i looked pissed wen i got to school..i was frikin lonely last night thinking of someone and i thought of her mostly thruout the day... i lost my lunch, which didnt make my day go any better, but i found it again l8r..i slept most of the day in school so the teacher made me run around the school within 30 seconds or she said id have to do it again til i made it in 30 sec.s ...i had too many tests today..my self-esteem is plummeting out of my control for some reason.....thank you to those who wanted to se me happy..thank you to those who helpd my day go by easy...thank you to those who blurt out shit and slip and who love me more than they think they love themselves...another thing das depressing is that im not sure anymore what it is that made me feel so depressed..hey this blog thing is a good stress reliever....wutevah

Tonight I can write

Tonight I can write the saddest lines

Write, for example, “The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance”

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings

Tonight I can write the saddest lines
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too
How could one not have loved her great still eyes

Tonight I can write the saddest lines
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture

What does it matter that my love could not keep her
The night is shattered and she is not with me

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her

if your wondering, i didnt write this. i wish i did though...i had fun last saturday..talking nonsense to someone. they talking nonsense back to me..if you were inside my head you'd understand. i can't completely explain everything cuz sumn is buggin me..ill write it all nxt time....and now a line for the famous ISC

Boris!! HE say he is FETISH sex GODESS!!!!

wutevah..