partially, slightly, zoreenishly random

the events of my life now come totaly randomly..like me wanting to tel you that my feet stink from being stuck in my shoes the whole day...shes confusing..i think shes mad at me now....whenevr shes mad at me i hardly know why..whats up wt us now?i dont even know...she cut hersef the other day and said it was cuz of me..and she was showing everyone and telln them it was my fault...idno if that was to get attention or what..but she promised me she wont do it again...m afraid she still might tho..i h8 her emo-ness..alot of people do..and she needs to grow up..i dont wana be with her now if it'll hinder her from growing as a maturing 15-year-old should...i always wanted someone older..cuz theyd be more prepared and shit..but i end up getn girls younger than me..im not sayng its a bad thing tho...i wana help her..i want her to be able to find the brightside of everything..she told me that ther hasnt been a day in her life where she'd been hapy the whole day..she finds something wrong wit like everything before looking at the whole picture..she judges too quickly..dammit why am i writing this...grr..i just need to let this out..and it doesnt feel like its coming out right...owel...ill write again when im more sober..bye