hi! this is bekah posting something that pen sent me and he cant do it himself cuz his multiply is messed up where he is!! Whot tha heyll! this is fun :b

stupid internet..it took so long to load the blog...i even had to ask my friend to upload this (that's you bekz!!) ..anyway... it really is my fault i huh.. dammit.. my friends hate my (ex)girlfriend and it's my fault.. if i had a problem with her before, i would bitch about it to my friends, and it gave the a bad impression of her.. and my friends think im crazy for still wanting her.. u guys say you love me and you're trying to protect me, but the shit u say abt her just cuts through me.. so what if im crazy for sayng this.. look at your lives first befor sayn stuff abt mine.. look at your relationships before sayng shit about the one that i had.. the one i seemed to complain alot abt but deep inside, was happy with.. im sori geri.. im sori my friends ha....dislike you..yeah maybe hate is too strong a word.. my s2pid mouth always gets me in trouble.. i need to learn to control it.. uhh.. i dont tell my friends enough of the good that you've done me.. i just keep telling them the bad.. dammit.. what's wrong with me.. and why cant i get over you.. why cant i just leave this all behind and move.. why does it creep up onto me more than too often.. why do i feel like i cant live without you.. shit.. to my friends: if you love someone as much as me maybe you'd understand.. im not making sense to myself anymore..haha.. im sori geri.....fook.. i can hear my friends reading this "you stupid asshole..get over her..we dont like her for u..blah blah blah"..shut the fuck up..its my life not yours..thank you for helping, but can u please stop..just on this subject.... complain abt other stuff i do if you want, but please stop it abt me and her.....we just end up fighting..uhh..ther..i hope i made my point..and if y'all r gna h8 me now cuz of this, so be it....oh and ger, jay doesnt hate you or dislike you anymore..