iv been too lazy to write any more blogs lately...les see......gerimander....i hurt someone..then made them not hurt anymore..then i think i went thru that cycle again today...that person is..uhh...special to me...i dont think any mortal thas not rel8d to me has ever loved me this much and i givn my love in return...my god this is cheezy....i have a headache..im flooded wit schoolwork...why is it that like no matter how hard i try to do sumn, i end up not finishing it..i see other kids finishing their work and they seem to be doin it like as if it wer kids work...dammit..im not sleepin tonight..ima be up feedin useless shit into my brain so i can be accepted as a "good" student to my teachers..why am i trying to please them and not myself...arnt i spozd to liv life how i wana...watever......what exactly is a kiss..it can mean so much...it can greet..bid fair well..be given..stolen...why wer we givn this gift..is it really a gift tho?....why wer we givn this thing that i cannot describe..this thing to be given at will...like a punch in the stomach..wat the hell am i saying....i need a break from reality..ill blog again wen i come back...oya y's it called a blog..what's the "B" satnd for..why not "clog"..computer log..or e-log.....ah nevr mind..i need to get out...