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uhm..i was supposed to write an essay for NSC..w8..i did writ 1 for NSC.. the thing is this guy from my school wanted to do essay too..we both submitted in our essays to Sir and he reviewd them...of corse, he chose the betr one-mine*ehem...essay writing was the other guy's only event so if mine went he wudnt have gone to Cebu..Sir asked me if i wud be willing to give up my essay writing so the other guy could go..guess what happend.....well the guy told me he'd buy me lunch the whole week at NSC..thas not y i gave it up..i wudv givn it up wthout the free lunch..i hope he duznt read this..well he gave me his word and the lunch is mine...mwahaha...im still wondering if i did the right thing..i think its pretty s2pid but then wutr friends for if not to bed over backwards for other friends...and plus i get free lunch...how can I refuse that:)...my principle is mad at me..im trying to redeem myself by showing her the performace of a soldier...its so fucked up..they expect so much from us..maa also has this habit of using evrything she knows about me against me..lyk that time with that girl in the bathroom when seriously NOTHING happend, she knew that me and her had this thing so she used it against me...and she believed the guard when he sed i was hugging the girl whith her clothes of..fuck-ass guard..my fingers ddnt evn touch her..i was 10 fucking feet away ya shit guard...now you in maintenance and in my eyes it looks lyk u wer brought down a level....degraded cuz your a lying, delirious son of a bitch..i know i spelld deleriowatever wrong..no, im not mad.............ok..maybe im a lil ticked off...2005 jus hasnt bin the best year for me..it started off when i almost died..i was in a car crash new years morining...maybe thats what shook shit up..haha...then i got involed w sum1 but had a pretty fucked up time cuz they was with sum1..my school work is doin pretty bad.oya i finished my work today so im trying to enjoy no homework and the praise of my supervisor..wut else hapnd this year..basta..alot's hapnd....the ACE people at ISC are prejeduce..i think thas speld wrong too...the Philippines keeps beatin their asses at oral argument...the event is now cancelled...people are sayin its cuz of us..haha....the judges are pregiduse too..specially the physical fittness judge mother fuckers...wutevah...i burned a letter last friday at school..it was from my dad..he gave it to me during ISC cuz had a pretty fucked up time for my event..it was spozd to encourage me and he was lyk"im here fo u".n stuff...i wonder y i burned it.....man im messed up..for those who know me, do u think im anti-Christ?....well im not..im jus a fucked up pastor's kid who does the things he wants to when he wants to..das a fun way to live..and a s2pid way..but das how i live alot of my life..das how u live without a girlfriend....m too bumd to write anymore........aloha