outlet

i just need to let stuff out...haay.....wel....uh..i wrote her a
letter..i worte it like at 1 in the morning and idno if she even liked
it or anything cuz she ddnt say anything about it...uh..i had bacon and
cheese for midnight snack, breakfast, and lunch...i saw kheyt and kheem
today at the mall..i wuv my sisters..hehe..they just came back from
china for their ice sk8n thing...kheem looks thinner and kheyt looks
fatter..haha...im still really pissed...hmm...got to tok to chris..he
said he likes me and geri beter than _____ and _______ cuz we're not
together wherever we are..were not parasites of each other or watever u
cn describe it as..but i wish we were like that once in a while....when
she comes to school, she's more exited and anxious to be wit her other
friends than with her boyfriend...i find myself staring at her alot in
the classroom...i wish i could catch her staring at me just for no
reason...thas wat i do...w8 ther is a reason..its cuz u fucking love
someone that you find yourself staring at them alot..and u stop your
work....and daydream about what eternity would be like being shared
with them....haay....dno wat else now....bye again

bleh..

today was somewhat amazing...hehe..i was planning since idno how long to suprise geri, and i finally got to do it today...i woke up and txtd her "gdmoring baby. i love you. i hope today is extra special for u" r sumthing like that..then i went out to make her lasanga, but my mom was already doing it without me so i just put everything in the pan and put it in the oven..then i made the epic commute to get to her house..2 jeeps, a bus, and a trike..it may not sound like much but try lasting that for 2 hours..then i went to my friend's house cuz she was gna go to geri with me..then i txtd geri "i wish i could make today extra special for u" "wen u sed u love me,dts ol i nded 2mke my day" .."i know how i can make it more special"..she ddnt reply..so i called her.."u ddnt reply..blabla....i know how i can make it more special for u" "how" "do something for me" "what" "look outside...."....lalala...yay..i made her happy=) nd im too tired to blog..hehe...bye

these following 2 entries were spozd to be cross posted from my multiply when i made them..but i dno wtf hapend...so anyway.....

ALMOST BEAKUP Aug 6, '06 10:23 PM
what's so wrong about thinking someone is hot? is it my fault that God made the person the way they are?its not like im gona do anything to her...jeezz....so uh...i kinda forgot what i was gona write..i think i almost broke up wit her again last night..i tokd to her mom and asked her how i cud earn her trust cuz shes not to fond of geri having a boyfriend..i ended up almost breaking up wit geri..her mom told me that i shouldnt have a relationship full of problems and that i should enjoy life cuz im still young and watever...wtf...im enjoying life wit geri..and shes enjoying it wit me...so wat if we have problems...im glad that we do..they teach us things...we learn from our mistakes....stupid ass.i made myself tear last night...haha...uh..knda hard to put my thoughts out right now for some reason..ohwell..til nxt time

DAMMIT Aug 9, '06 9:48 AM
no school today but i gota finish like 80sumn pages of homework...and what better way to use my time by wasting it away blogging.....some girls are really girls...thers girls who act like guys, girls who are just girls, and girls who are really girls...girls who are really girls will gossip about everything with no concern to the people they are saying shit about..they wil try to manipulate the people around them so that they can seem popular...when the gossip, they say that they care about the person and ther telling shit about someone because we cant tell them what the fuck to do and they're trying to protect their friends.....bullshit...putting you're friend and friend's boyfriend's relationship wioth one another in jeopardy is not how you protect your friends...sayng shit about someone to make u look like the super hero that everyone wants to hang with is not gona help you..you will fall in the end..you will stumble and be humiliated and be hated by those whom u thought were your friends..s2pid bitch....haha...sorry im just trying to let this all out.....thers some people who dont learn from their mistakes...or maybe thety just dont wana learn..they dont wana listen to the advise that people give them and they end up hurting themselves so much...life is not a fairy tale, though people do everything they can to make it seem like one...ther are some things in life that we need to accept...ther are some things in life where the concept of getting back on your feet and trying again just doesnt apply...haay..poor girl....you deserve better than those guys...mr. right will go to u..be patient..enjoy ur life...dont w8 in vain......waah..is this to much?hehe....i love geri so much...lalng...she comuted for the 1st time yesterday..and she was with me=) it was a little too much for her tho..raining..8 people in a trike..ppl sittng on people..her foot almost gettng hit by a passing car...haha...it was fun tho.....*purple room*..dont ask what that was.haha..our friends in school say they get jealous of me and geri but not the other couples...wonder why that is.....hehe..weird...wel i think this is enough for now..stil got that 80pages..haha...aloha