well...i went to school even tho its summer vacation..mostly cuz i was bored..i needed to get sumn ther..on the way ther geri textd and told me she was home alone and she was like "why dnt u come over" n stuff...she was kiddn..but i actually did go..anyway ill skip stuff...i had no way to go ther cuz i ddnt know how to commute ther..so i made my classmate bring me ther..but its kinda out of his way..but he did it any way..but on the way my clasm8 was like gettn mad cuz it was really out of his way n shit...and..well..imagine that ur mom is w8n for u to pick you up and your asshole friend is begging u to take him to his girlfriend's house that u dnt even know wer it it is and u dnt even have a pemanent licinse yet and you dno how long shit's gna take and all that junk...well thas probly wat he felt....then wen we get ther, i get off, say hi, she gets in the car, we buy sumn, go back to the spot wer we picked her up, i get off wit her n walk like a couple meters from the car then practically only look at her for the next 5 minutes till its time for us to go..i h8 time...i wish it'd stand still..i got kinda mad at her cuz i only spent that long with her and we ddnt even do anything...im kinda fucked up right now as u can tell....i talked to myself (yes. i actually talk to myself) and i asked "is it really necesary to get mad..is it really necesary to be pissed at her forever?" ..well its not right? ....im should stop complaining so much..i told her a wile ago that it made me so glad to have seen her today even if it was such a short time and it was kinda messed up...i wasnt really exoecting much anyway wen i was thinking of goin ther..and thats how it should be right? dont expect..just give people wat they want to expect....i dont expect her to love me each day or to agree with everythin i believe..but she does love me everyday...and i love her everyday..its like im blessed r sumn by it...i ges....am i making any sense...???? i need to work out my thoughts more clearly next time im blog...haha...bye